Wednesday, 1 October 2014

My Childhood Fears

The tale of the midnight madness.

At the time, being around 5 years old, I wasn't aware of Nosferatu and didn't have any clue about Vampires. That was until I watched (partially) a particular Episode of "Are you afraid of the dark" which was called "The tale of the midnight madness".

Basically, without giving too much away, what happens is this. These two teenagers are working in a theater that is on the verge of closing. This guy, Dr. Vink, tells them he can save the theater  if they show a special version of the classic, Nosferatu. Naturally, they show it and, to put it bluntly, shit gets real. Nosferatu makes his way out of the theater screen, yes, out of it and it all just goes down hill from there.

Needless to say, I didn't watch the rest of it after that, I was terrified and spent the rest of the episode hiding behind the sofa eating pizza. However, the damage had already been done and the image of him coming out of the screen haunted me for a very long time. I was so terrified that a vampire was going to come and bite me whilst I slept, that I would, even in the boiling hot summer, sleep with my sheet pulled up under my nose. Clearly I assumed he was completely stupid and that having my sheet pulled up over my neck would completely throw him off and that he wouldn't bother trying to get to my neck because the sheet was in the way. 5 year old logic, ladies and gentlemen. That logic is about as good as hiding under your blankets in the hopes that the psycho killer, or whoever made the unknown noise which in reality was most likely nobody, who is lurking in your house wont actually know or see that you are hiding underneath them. Logic, what is it?

Pennywise The Clown

I once made the mistake of coming out of my room late at night, when I was meant to be sleeping, only to stumble upon "IT" playing on the TV. Luckily for me, the scene I witnessed happened to be the drain scene. We all know about the drain scene, if not, I'll link it here so you can see it for yourself. I think I was about 6 when this happened and it still haunts me at almost 26. I still avoid those types of drains. It's automatic for me to do it. I don't even notice that I have done it unless someone points it out to me. 20 years I have been avoiding drains and I don't plan on stopping anytime soon. I know that he is just waiting for me to slip up and walk past a drain so he can grab me. It's not going to happen, Pennywise! 

Open Curtains At Night.

This was when I was about 8 or 9. I was ocd about making sure that my curtains were closed before it got dark. If I hadn't closed them by the time night rolled around, I would get my mum or my older sister to go and close them for me because I was terrified and just couldn't do it, I would go into hysterics. Here's why.

We had just moved into a completely new area, hours away from where we previously lived, and the house we were living in was surrounded by bush land. It was fine at first, I had no issue with having my curtain open at night, that was until I started becoming friends with the kids in my street and they proceeded to tell me the stories that had been told to them by the older kids. That's when everything turned to shit. Basically, I was told two stories. First was of the Yowie, this hairy creature that was once believed to be a homeless man who suddenly turned into a hairy wild monster. I was told that if you walk into your room on a night and see him standing at your window, you have to leave food on your windowsill the next night. If you didn't, he would snatch you from your bed.
The second story was about Crow People. Crow People were people who were crows during the day and people during the night. I was never really told much of a back story on Crow People. I was just given rules to follow and these were the rules. Do not make eye contact with a crow, if you do, you're marked. If you're marked, game over. The crow people will do all they can to get to you. If you stay out once it's dark they'll grab you and turn you into one of them, if you see them outside your window, they'll appear in your bedroom and turn you into one of them. So, naturally, I avoided all eye contact with crows and made sure my curtains were closed before dark and survived that ordeal.

I know, why the hell did you fall for that?. It is, what it is. Ha!

Bathroom Mirrors

This fear is one I still have today. I, for some reason, cannot bring myself to wash my face in the bathroom, brush my teeth in the bathroom. I can't do anything in the bathroom that requires me to stand at the sink, in front of the mirror. I can't do it. For most of my life, I couldn't do it. I was adamant that If I looked away from the mirror, even briefly, that when I looked back the would be someones face behind me and that when I turned around to have a look, nobody would be there. I'd say "I've seen too many horror movies" but I have been doing this since I was about 6 or 7. I just have a fear of the bathroom mirror.

The Dark

Whats a list of childhood fears without being afraid of the dark. I still have this fear, for the most part. I mean it isn't a severe as what it used to be. I always had to sleep with a lamp on, I don't know if it had anything to do with the fact that I suffered from night terrors, which were usually always in dark spooky places, all I know is that I couldn't go to sleep without a lamp on. I couldn't go anywhere in the house without turning all the lights on. I still do some of these things, some I don't. For instance, I stopped sleeping with a lamp on about 4 years ago and I still turn most of the house lights on, when I'm alone, except bedroom lights. I just shut the bedroom doors. Other than that, I don't have much of an issue with the dark at all.

You've reached the end!. I actually had this post written up and scheduled for the beginning of September. However, I figured that it would be more appropriate to post it in October seeing as all my posts this month will be Halloween related. I love Halloween. Anyways, I hope you enjoyed it and I would love to hear about any strange fears you had as a child, feel free to leave a comment about it. If you you wish.
Until next time, take care x


  1. I freaking hateeee clowns ever since watching 'It' based on the book from Stephen King. Ugh!

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  2. One of my biggest fears has always been open curtains at night! As a kid I was terrified of them mainly because I always imagined an alien peeking in my window. (My parents let me watch X-files when I was little -_-) Nowadays I'm not afraid of aliens but just the fact that I can't see what's out there creeps me out a little too much. And of course pennywise the clown, I already had a horrible fear of clowns to begin with and then I saw parts of IT, and that was just too much for me to handle. I think my fear of clowns started with Ronald McDonald..

    1. Me too! I still have to close my curtains. I would run a mile the moment I heard x-files music playing! The opening credits alone scared the hell out of me! It still creeps me out now.

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  4. Oh dear, I hope you're not scared anymore! My parents never allowed me to watch any terrified movies- they were always there, watching tv with me or put a cartoon on. However, I did had a couple of unpleasant situations. I never liked clowns- their makeup explains everything- too creepy. Also, I don't remember if I watched a trailer or a movie but I was so scared of beetlejuice. I still can't make myself to watch it (again?)- I avoid horror movies in general because even if I know nothing of this is possible, I know my imagination can sometimes fail me for a day or two. Sorry for too many words- I did liked this post very much- it was a bit special and unseen on other blogs :)
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    1. No, most of those thing I am no longer afraid of, thank goodness! Theres no need to aplogize. I love reading long comments :) I have a wild imagination and although I probably shouldn't watch horror movie because of it, I can't help myself. I just love horror movies :)

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  7. Gosh, how lucky am I to have seen my first horror films in black & white, as well as more than a little silly if they are starring Abbot & Costello! So many scary things on tv nowadays and it's in Hi Def !
    Interesting blogging and a good way to process those feelings.

    1. They are much scarier now. I doubt I would be able to cope with the horror movies they bring out, as a kid